hitting bottom
Well, it is time to confess. I hit bottom last week. Melted down. I acted out in anger and frustration with my wife and her dog. Leslie was complaining it seemed to me. About how unresponsive I was. She was trying to get me to open up and share what I was "feeling". I am an Enneagram 3, and as such, have difficulty finding my feelings. I am naturally detached. Compartmentalization comes quite naturally to me. In doing so, she verbally coerced, pushed, and coaxed, pushed, and then.... well, my small self gets threatened...I was not in a very good mood. I was tired, and frustrated, and a bit worried about ...finances, the business, the fact that Les wanted me to open up, and I did not want to. I wanted to be left alone, and neither she nor the dog would leave me alone. Les wanted me to let her in on what I was feeling. The dog wanted to play and rough house. I wanted neither. Leslie was talking to me, and I was responding, quietly and calmly, when the dog kept barking, barkin