Nothingness—it’s nothing new
St. John of the Cross was definitely one who was into “the slaying of the ego”. When I first came across his writing, I was put off by the blunt language about how “I am nothing”. It offended my fragile and self aggrandizing egocentrism. That was over ten years ago. Now I know that by dying to my self—my ego centric, worldly focused life, I can actually begin to absorb and be filled by the very Spirit of the Living One. This is a priceless treasure. But… It is “a way that we know not.” “ In order to come to pleasure you have not, you must go by a way that you will enjoy not. To come to the knowledge that you have not, you must go by a way that you know not. To come to the possession that you have not, you must go by a way that you possess not. To come to be what you are not, you must go by a way that you are not.” It is complete change. metanoia —change of mind. This change is unknown, until the death to self happens. Suffering seems to be the bridge through which this ch