In Yoke

“There is an underlying attitude that cripples and blinds each of us. It can be so pervasive that we do not often question it. This attitude is a perversion of the natural order created by our loneliness and insecurity, by the illusion of separateness, by ignorance. The problem, in a way, is quite simple: we think of ourselves too often and in the wrong way . The result is self importance (or its’ opposite, self hatred), and greed.” As I share the long and sometimes sordid story of my own autobiography, I do so from a “Spiritual lessons” point of view, keeping this aforementioned premise in mind. I can really relate to this…because for a great portion of my life- I have thought of myself too often and in the wrong way . I have been studying the enneagram as a way of self revelation and understanding for the purposes of transformation by the Spirit of Yahweh, through Jesus Christ(YESHUA-His Aramaic name). As an Enneagram three, who is seeking redemption from my natural b...

Well, it is time to confess. I hit bottom last week. Melted down. I acted out in anger and frustration with my wife and her dog. Leslie was complaining it seemed to me. About how unresponsive I was. She was trying to get me to open up and share what I was "feeling". I am an Enneagram 3, and as such, have difficulty finding my feelings. I am naturally detached. Compartmentalization comes quite naturally to me. In doing so, she verbally coerced, pushed, and coaxed, pushed, and then.... well, my small self gets threatened...I was not in a very good mood. I was tired, and frustrated, and a bit worried about ...finances, the business, the fact that Les wanted me to open up, and I did not want to. I wanted to be left alone, and neither she nor the dog would leave me alone. Les wanted me to let her in on what I was feeling. The dog wanted to play and rough house. I wanted neither. Leslie was talking to me, and I was responding, quietly and calmly, when the dog kept barking, barkin...